《幸福》 (Saturday, August 29, 2009) ♥

我今天想和大家分享我讀過的一片故事.

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《幸福》

這是我一輩子最幸福的事.應該說是我一輩子第一次感受到那樣的幸福.

雖然我年紀輕輕,雖然很多人都說這個年齡時不可能體會到真正的愛情,雖然很多人都說這個年紀的情侶都在欺騙自己,可是我非常清楚我那時候是真的愛上了他.不是喜歡也更不可能是好感而是純純的愛,從未有過的感覺.

就在他家.

在第20樓的那閒公寓裏,我就把女人最重要的寶物給了他.我心甘情願地把我第一次給了他.我也是奪走他第一次的人.

他那時候緊緊地摟著我,在我耳邊輕輕地對我說"我愛你"讓后親我額頭.那時候,我才終于明白什麽是幸福.

我們分手了.纏綿的4天后,我們分手了.

爲了忘了傷痛,我過後還談了不少次的戀愛然而沒有一段是可以長久的因爲我依然對他念念不忘.現在已經沒有心痛的感覺了.心痛轉換成思念.隨著歲月的流逝,他在我腦海裏留下的美好與疤痕已漸漸地淡去.我自己也慢慢地學會不再依靠男人來掩蓋他留下的傷痛,逐漸地獨立.我變得更堅強.成熟了不少.

我已不會再說他的是非也不會再可憐自己.

不會有第二個男人讓我感受到那般的幸福,也不會有第二個男人讓我流那麽多淚水.無論我倆怎麽否認有過這段緣份,怎麽否認曾經相識,兩個人就是這樣失去第一次.事情不可能再回頭從新演變一次,是想改變也改變不了的事情.不可能.

他昨晚離開了這個地方.我們應該再也不可能見到對方.這份短暫卻特殊的緣分就到此爲止了.

我曾經無條件深愛的人-XXX.

我生命中的小插曲.我最幸福的事.

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晚安（：


♥,
Sueanne ♀

Fcking wannabe (Saturday, August 1, 2009) ♥

I didn't go to school for the whole of last week and my Blogger's still crazy.

I was down with H1N1 but have recovered now after taking 6 different Western medicines and 2 different Chinese medicines. ):

So far behind in my studies, least I don't need to see that Gemini bitch. (;

Lalala.

Will update later.


I HATE BLOGGER,
Sueanne ♀

& a few RANTS (Tuesday, July 28, 2009) ♥

My blogger's still crazy but at least can update now. Its like the formatting of my create post section's all messed up :X

Past week has been relaxing. Went out with the girls for dinner a few times. Subway and Bugis. Went all the way to Bugis to get my stationary. Seriously, why can't Muji open a store closer to home, I'm such a loyal buyer after all despite their ridiculously high prices -.-

Just recovered from high fever (38.1 celcius) :s and my eyes were swollen till there was only a slit, like Voldemort's. Seriously, my huge eyes reduced to a SLIT. That's how bad it was. Just only recovered. Haven't gone to school for 2 days :\

My body.. ):

Oh, I absolutely HATE a certain Gemini. So fake and pretentious. Using and trying to get close to people just so she can climb up the social ladder. Yes, a she. She thinks I don't know she used me as well. Pathetic and pitiful I must say. I LOATHE such people. Attention seeking whore. I'm glad to say she's ugly (no really, I don't call someone ugly unless they REALLY are ugly) and we all know how LOOKS MATTER.

Boy, you people should really see the way she converses with people. Like she's so damned interested in their problems but its obviously faked. Can't explain it, have to see for yourself to get what I mean.

Honey, I'm going through high school the second time and I see RIGHT THROUGH YOU.

Guess who >=)

Losers in my life.

Lalalala.


Hate is a strong word peeps,
Sueanne ♀

ANGRY (Friday, July 24, 2009) ♥

I've got LOADS to blog about but I can't because blogger's being an ASSHOLE!!

-.-


TREMBLING,
Sueanne ♀

What you looking at, loser? (Wednesday, July 22, 2009) ♥

I've been a good girl.

我是宅女？

Hah.

-

Blogger's f-ed up in the posting section.

:\

-

Have been skipping PE and getting fairer.

(:

This nutcase girl in my school LATHERS SUNBLOCK all over herself.

Like half a bottle used? :S

-

Ex still thinks I care cause I blogged about it. Doesn't mean I care.

Just MUTHAFCKIN' PISSED.

DON'T YOU GET IT?

-

Life had been good. I miss the people I miss but no pain.

I'm happy.

-

Private blog redone.

With even MORE restricted entry but more juicy.

Contains the truth about the 15 exes.

Nothing but the truth and everything we did.

(;

Sorry for deleting you off blog readership. Only 5 people left.

www.sueanne-private.blogspot.com

-

Xx.


Kiss me through the phone,
Sueanne ♀

When I cut you out, (Sunday, July 19, 2009) ♥

Went to Cine@Orchard with my friends on Friday. Watched Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. Its pretty decent. Don't know why so many people says it sucks. The book is waaaay better though. (; Got home at 12am.

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Have been lazy to update.

Anyway, today that bitch got on my nerves again. Which one? My youngest uncle's spouse. The one that took my LV bag without asking and made a whole lot of noise when I took her shoes without asking (I was in a hurry, didn't see what I was putting on my feet, cheapass shit anyway).

If you remember that post.

I used two cups upstairs and since the maid went back already we all have to wash our own cups and bla bla. I washed my dishes. Forgot about the two cups. Bitch shouted at me to wash them. Zzz. I walked away.

That's what I do to people I really dislike. Pretend they don't exist, cut them out of my life. Don't even bother shouting or fighting, they're invisible to me. Her, my dad, the ex in the post before this. When I'm really really angry I don't pick up calls or reply sms-es so don't bother, seriously.

You see, if she had asked NICELY, I would've washed the cups. Needless to say, she was bitching at the top of her voice to everyone the minute I walked out the door. Continue barking. I do NOT give a rat's ass.

In case you don't know, 我吃軟的，不吃硬 (:

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I honestly don't care what my family members choose to say about me anymore. To me, my dad is a lost cause. Till today he doesn't know I know about him bitching. Why? Cause I don't bother confronting. As I said, I cut him out. This woman means nothing of course. My grandmama's bitching about her day and night anyway.

When I cut someone out COMPLETELY, I don't talk to them at all (my dad have to la cause well -.-). Don't bother correcting what they think of me. They can say whatever they want about me being disobedient or that I'm throwing my future away. Bollocks.

I'm not being stubborn or ignorant here. I get the best results and I know where I'm headed in life (if my dad funds my higher education). And I DO know my attitude problems. I'm trying to mend them. I don't need you to tell me what's wrong or what to do cause I'm old enough to know my flaws and what's right or wrong.

I DO know what's right and what's wrong, I DO know the consequences of my actions. I just CHOOSE to do so sometimes. Perhaps cause I'm young and reckless or just plain curious. So stop bugging/lecturing me cause I KNOW what I'm doing.

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That's why I HATE HATE HATE it when someone whom I've cut out of my life (and knows it) interferes with my life. That's why I was so pissed at the ex in my previous post. We made a MUTUAL DEAL to stay away from each other's lives and he thinks its all a game.

Cheatin', lyin' ex whom I cut out too is STILL talking about our story. He just told my friend that day that the only reason he was with me was for revenge. Wtf?! Since when have I offended him before we were together. Screw that. He was long forgotten anyway.

This bitch can continue barking cause as I said, she doesn't exist to me anymore.

Seriously, if I cut you out from my life I mean it. I don't tell people to fuck off from my life if I don't mean it. If we could still be friends I wouldn't say that. So please, if I have asked you to fuck off then FUCK OFF.

No, no such thing as second chances once I've made THAT decision. You must've done something really horrible to come to that.

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Off to watch my dramas. Nights.


Have I given up on you?
Sueanne ♀

GET A LIFE DUDE (Friday, July 17, 2009) ♥

An ex (not cheatin', lyin' ex) whom have chosen to cut all friendship ties or whatever ties with me is pissing me off. We aren't on talking terms anymore and I've treated him like a stranger for as long as I can remember.

Remember how I was late one week for school as I missed 2 flights? The fello went and asked my friend whether I'm coming back. When my friend said yes but maybe later, the fello said "Oh such a pity, I was hoping she would NEVER come back".

WTF.

Like, what's your problem DUDE. You "don't know" me and neither do I. Why out of the blue come and fuck me up like this. If you don't wanna see me then hurry up and haul your ass to fucking US.

I don't wish to see you anymore as well. Because everytime I look at your face, I am reminded of all the mistakes I've made. But you taught me lessons and in a way you made me a better person. You stopped me from cursing and made me quit smoking and clubbing. All because I loved you at that time. But not anymore.

Then, I re-added him on MSN and Facebook cause I was pretty damned pissed. He deleted and blocked again. HAH. He even asked my friend to TELL ME that he deleted and blocked me. He told my friend he wants to make me hate him.

What the hell. Childish much?

THEN, he tells everyone I added him on MSN and Facebook again BUT he deleted and blocked me. Laughing stock man. Very proud he deleted and blocked me. A round of applause for him please. For showing how bloody shallow he is.

Basically, I've come to the conclusion that he's too bored so he has to come up with these ridiculously childish "games", like to try make me hate him. ???!! GET A LIFE. He IS kinda busybody so its no surprise.

Just, WHY ME? WHY??!!!!!!! GET OFF MY BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was living a fairly peaceful life with my loving girlfs before this. Yes, I think of him sometimes but THAT'S IT. I DON'T miss him and neither do I want him back. I don't even ask for friendship. I just take him as a stranger, a stranger I will never get to know.

So what if you have your whole gang? So what if you think you're ALL that? I'm sick and tired of giving in to you. I've given in every single time. Shed more tears for you than for any other ex. Maybe I've given in too much but NOT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He even told people that whenever he sees me his "BODY STARTS TREMBLING". Yes, exact words. And he is "SCARED" of me. Wow, I'm so bloody SCARY. I eat children for breakfast and old people for dinner. He thinks I wanna have him for LUNCH. -.-

Obviously, this is his pathetic effort of trying to make himself look like the victim. As if we all can't see through that honey.

Seriously, I'm pissed. Wrote him a very angry email because I can't sit here and swallow the shit he's throwing me anymore. I have never done something like that to ANYONE (seriously), neither have I ever bad mouthed him in this blog.

I had a good mind to go to his house and scream at him but what's the point. I'm not a vile person despite what many of you people think. That's why I let everything go. But this is the LAST STRAW.


He's changed. The person I fell in love with did not use vulgarities, who'd bring an extra sweater for me when we went to the movies, who'd tell me nice stories about his family.

But now he's someone who uses the word "fuck" just for the SAKE of using it, acts like he's above everyone else, who thinks I'm DIRTY, who thinks he's too good to know a friend like me.

The person I fell in love with has died. And yet he thinks I'm not over him.

I don't need him to tell me to hate him. Because I don't want to hate him, love him, like him, dislike him and neither do I want him back or have him in the centre of my heart. I just don't want to care about him anymore. I don't want to acknowledge his exsistence at all. And I expect him to do the same.

No, it doesn't hurt. It's more like a RELIEF. I want him OUT OF MY LIFE.

Hating the person only shows you still care, its indifference that proves you have nothing for that person anymore.

Yes, I've fought for him before. Yes, I've given in to many times. Yes, I was practically his lapdog. Yes, I've kept the secret desire to be his friend again someday.

But now, my only wish is for him to go to US ASAP. What hopes of friendship? I've burned them all. Heck, I even wish I never knew him.

The boy I knew and fell in love with has DIED.


This is the boy I gave everything to.


Taiwanese,
Sueanne ♀

Looks like a solo tonight

I've decided to start a new blog because my life feels empty without a blog, a place to pour and share and my thoughts, feelings and dreams. (:

The contents in my old blog will never be opened to public again because it ruined my life in a lot ways.

It was my first blog and I was a beginner. I wrote EVERYTHING and ANYTHING, not caring about the consequences. I soon realized that what I was doing - publicizing my life too much was destroying me slowly. I decided to disclose less info but I guess it was already too late as past posts exists in my archives.

No matter how I tried to cover up certain nasty things, it was still available to everyone who has an internet with just a mere click.

A　LOT has changed since I started blogging almost oneandahalfyears ago. Some things mentioned, some kept a secret and will remain a secret for life.

I just need a fresh piece of parchment to record my daily life as the previous piece was too contaminated.

It no longer portrays me anymore. Cause I'm not the same girl from oneandahalf years ago.

The blog is named survivor because when I look back, I don't know how I survived those REALLY TOUGH times. Not exaggerating. A lot of things have happened, bringing a LOT of changes. Things I've never mentioned in my blog before.

Though this blog will not be as juicy and gossipy as the previous.

It will be mostly about my daily life, not revealing much of what I'm really feeling, no more long elaborations and hate posts, photos will be kept a minimal (as I'm not that active camwhore-er anymore).

Leave if you think my life's so boring that its not worth reading anymore.

Cause to me, it isn't about the readership. Its about recording my everyday ups and downs till the day I truly succeed in life.

Thus, let me welcome the all of you to this new blog. This refreshing start of another chapter in my life. (:

Its a full moon tonight

April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009


www.sueanne-survivor.blogspot.com

The power lines went out

Of nothing but the great story of my life ♥


I'll be your sinful addiction,
Till you're 6 feet under.


I'm gonna find another YOU. (:

I'm beginning to see the light

Opinions on others that think of me.

Leave a comment. (:

《幸福》 (Saturday, August 29, 2009)♥

我今天想和大家分享我讀過的一片故事.

-

《幸福》

這是我一輩子最幸福的事.應該說是我一輩子第一次感受到那樣的幸福.

雖然我年紀輕輕,雖然很多人都說這個年齡時不可能體會到真正的愛情,雖然很多人都說這個年紀的情侶都在欺騙自己,可是我非常清楚我那時候是真的愛上了他.不是喜歡也更不可能是好感而是純純的愛,從未有過的感覺.

就在他家.

在第20樓的那閒公寓裏,我就把女人最重要的寶物給了他.我心甘情願地把我第一次給了他.我也是奪走他第一次的人.

他那時候緊緊地摟著我,在我耳邊輕輕地對我說"我愛你"讓后親我額頭.那時候,我才終于明白什麽是幸福.

我們分手了.纏綿的4天后,我們分手了.

爲了忘了傷痛,我過後還談了不少次的戀愛然而沒有一段是可以長久的因爲我依然對他念念不忘.現在已經沒有心痛的感覺了.心痛轉換成思念.隨著歲月的流逝,他在我腦海裏留下的美好與疤痕已漸漸地淡去.我自己也慢慢地學會不再依靠男人來掩蓋他留下的傷痛,逐漸地獨立.我變得更堅強.成熟了不少.

我已不會再說他的是非也不會再可憐自己.

不會有第二個男人讓我感受到那般的幸福,也不會有第二個男人讓我流那麽多淚水.無論我倆怎麽否認有過這段緣份,怎麽否認曾經相識,兩個人就是這樣失去第一次.事情不可能再回頭從新演變一次,是想改變也改變不了的事情.不可能.

他昨晚離開了這個地方.我們應該再也不可能見到對方.這份短暫卻特殊的緣分就到此爲止了.

我曾經無條件深愛的人-XXX.

我生命中的小插曲.我最幸福的事.

-

晚安（：


♥,
Sueanne ♀

Fcking wannabe (Saturday, August 1, 2009)♥

I didn't go to school for the whole of last week and my Blogger's still crazy.

I was down with H1N1 but have recovered now after taking 6 different Western medicines and 2 different Chinese medicines. ):

So far behind in my studies, least I don't need to see that Gemini bitch. (;

Lalala.

Will update later.


I HATE BLOGGER,
Sueanne ♀

& a few RANTS (Tuesday, July 28, 2009)♥

My blogger's still crazy but at least can update now. Its like the formatting of my create post section's all messed up :X

Past week has been relaxing. Went out with the girls for dinner a few times. Subway and Bugis. Went all the way to Bugis to get my stationary. Seriously, why can't Muji open a store closer to home, I'm such a loyal buyer after all despite their ridiculously high prices -.-

Just recovered from high fever (38.1 celcius) :s and my eyes were swollen till there was only a slit, like Voldemort's. Seriously, my huge eyes reduced to a SLIT. That's how bad it was. Just only recovered. Haven't gone to school for 2 days :\

My body.. ):

Oh, I absolutely HATE a certain Gemini. So fake and pretentious. Using and trying to get close to people just so she can climb up the social ladder. Yes, a she. She thinks I don't know she used me as well. Pathetic and pitiful I must say. I LOATHE such people. Attention seeking whore. I'm glad to say she's ugly (no really, I don't call someone ugly unless they REALLY are ugly) and we all know how LOOKS MATTER.

Boy, you people should really see the way she converses with people. Like she's so damned interested in their problems but its obviously faked. Can't explain it, have to see for yourself to get what I mean.

Honey, I'm going through high school the second time and I see RIGHT THROUGH YOU.

Guess who >=)

Losers in my life.

Lalalala.


Hate is a strong word peeps,
Sueanne ♀

ANGRY (Friday, July 24, 2009)♥

I've got LOADS to blog about but I can't because blogger's being an ASSHOLE!!

-.-


TREMBLING,
Sueanne ♀

What you looking at, loser? (Wednesday, July 22, 2009)♥

I've been a good girl.

我是宅女？

Hah.

-

Blogger's f-ed up in the posting section.

:\

-

Have been skipping PE and getting fairer.

(:

This nutcase girl in my school LATHERS SUNBLOCK all over herself.

Like half a bottle used? :S

-

Ex still thinks I care cause I blogged about it. Doesn't mean I care.

Just MUTHAFCKIN' PISSED.

DON'T YOU GET IT?

-

Life had been good. I miss the people I miss but no pain.

I'm happy.

-

Private blog redone.

With even MORE restricted entry but more juicy.

Contains the truth about the 15 exes.

Nothing but the truth and everything we did.

(;

Sorry for deleting you off blog readership. Only 5 people left.

www.sueanne-private.blogspot.com

-

Xx.


Kiss me through the phone,
Sueanne ♀

When I cut you out, (Sunday, July 19, 2009)♥

Went to Cine@Orchard with my friends on Friday. Watched Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. Its pretty decent. Don't know why so many people says it sucks. The book is waaaay better though. (; Got home at 12am.

-

Have been lazy to update.

Anyway, today that bitch got on my nerves again. Which one? My youngest uncle's spouse. The one that took my LV bag without asking and made a whole lot of noise when I took her shoes without asking (I was in a hurry, didn't see what I was putting on my feet, cheapass shit anyway).

If you remember that post.

I used two cups upstairs and since the maid went back already we all have to wash our own cups and bla bla. I washed my dishes. Forgot about the two cups. Bitch shouted at me to wash them. Zzz. I walked away.

That's what I do to people I really dislike. Pretend they don't exist, cut them out of my life. Don't even bother shouting or fighting, they're invisible to me. Her, my dad, the ex in the post before this. When I'm really really angry I don't pick up calls or reply sms-es so don't bother, seriously.

You see, if she had asked NICELY, I would've washed the cups. Needless to say, she was bitching at the top of her voice to everyone the minute I walked out the door. Continue barking. I do NOT give a rat's ass.

In case you don't know, 我吃軟的，不吃硬 (:

-

I honestly don't care what my family members choose to say about me anymore. To me, my dad is a lost cause. Till today he doesn't know I know about him bitching. Why? Cause I don't bother confronting. As I said, I cut him out. This woman means nothing of course. My grandmama's bitching about her day and night anyway.

When I cut someone out COMPLETELY, I don't talk to them at all (my dad have to la cause well -.-). Don't bother correcting what they think of me. They can say whatever they want about me being disobedient or that I'm throwing my future away. Bollocks.

I'm not being stubborn or ignorant here. I get the best results and I know where I'm headed in life (if my dad funds my higher education). And I DO know my attitude problems. I'm trying to mend them. I don't need you to tell me what's wrong or what to do cause I'm old enough to know my flaws and what's right or wrong.

I DO know what's right and what's wrong, I DO know the consequences of my actions. I just CHOOSE to do so sometimes. Perhaps cause I'm young and reckless or just plain curious. So stop bugging/lecturing me cause I KNOW what I'm doing.

-

That's why I HATE HATE HATE it when someone whom I've cut out of my life (and knows it) interferes with my life. That's why I was so pissed at the ex in my previous post. We made a MUTUAL DEAL to stay away from each other's lives and he thinks its all a game.

Cheatin', lyin' ex whom I cut out too is STILL talking about our story. He just told my friend that day that the only reason he was with me was for revenge. Wtf?! Since when have I offended him before we were together. Screw that. He was long forgotten anyway.

This bitch can continue barking cause as I said, she doesn't exist to me anymore.

Seriously, if I cut you out from my life I mean it. I don't tell people to fuck off from my life if I don't mean it. If we could still be friends I wouldn't say that. So please, if I have asked you to fuck off then FUCK OFF.

No, no such thing as second chances once I've made THAT decision. You must've done something really horrible to come to that.

-

Off to watch my dramas. Nights.


Have I given up on you?
Sueanne ♀

GET A LIFE DUDE (Friday, July 17, 2009)♥

An ex (not cheatin', lyin' ex) whom have chosen to cut all friendship ties or whatever ties with me is pissing me off. We aren't on talking terms anymore and I've treated him like a stranger for as long as I can remember.

Remember how I was late one week for school as I missed 2 flights? The fello went and asked my friend whether I'm coming back. When my friend said yes but maybe later, the fello said "Oh such a pity, I was hoping she would NEVER come back".

WTF.

Like, what's your problem DUDE. You "don't know" me and neither do I. Why out of the blue come and fuck me up like this. If you don't wanna see me then hurry up and haul your ass to fucking US.

I don't wish to see you anymore as well. Because everytime I look at your face, I am reminded of all the mistakes I've made. But you taught me lessons and in a way you made me a better person. You stopped me from cursing and made me quit smoking and clubbing. All because I loved you at that time. But not anymore.

Then, I re-added him on MSN and Facebook cause I was pretty damned pissed. He deleted and blocked again. HAH. He even asked my friend to TELL ME that he deleted and blocked me. He told my friend he wants to make me hate him.

What the hell. Childish much?

THEN, he tells everyone I added him on MSN and Facebook again BUT he deleted and blocked me. Laughing stock man. Very proud he deleted and blocked me. A round of applause for him please. For showing how bloody shallow he is.

Basically, I've come to the conclusion that he's too bored so he has to come up with these ridiculously childish "games", like to try make me hate him. ???!! GET A LIFE. He IS kinda busybody so its no surprise.

Just, WHY ME? WHY??!!!!!!! GET OFF MY BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was living a fairly peaceful life with my loving girlfs before this. Yes, I think of him sometimes but THAT'S IT. I DON'T miss him and neither do I want him back. I don't even ask for friendship. I just take him as a stranger, a stranger I will never get to know.

So what if you have your whole gang? So what if you think you're ALL that? I'm sick and tired of giving in to you. I've given in every single time. Shed more tears for you than for any other ex. Maybe I've given in too much but NOT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He even told people that whenever he sees me his "BODY STARTS TREMBLING". Yes, exact words. And he is "SCARED" of me. Wow, I'm so bloody SCARY. I eat children for breakfast and old people for dinner. He thinks I wanna have him for LUNCH. -.-

Obviously, this is his pathetic effort of trying to make himself look like the victim. As if we all can't see through that honey.

Seriously, I'm pissed. Wrote him a very angry email because I can't sit here and swallow the shit he's throwing me anymore. I have never done something like that to ANYONE (seriously), neither have I ever bad mouthed him in this blog.

I had a good mind to go to his house and scream at him but what's the point. I'm not a vile person despite what many of you people think. That's why I let everything go. But this is the LAST STRAW.


He's changed. The person I fell in love with did not use vulgarities, who'd bring an extra sweater for me when we went to the movies, who'd tell me nice stories about his family.

But now he's someone who uses the word "fuck" just for the SAKE of using it, acts like he's above everyone else, who thinks I'm DIRTY, who thinks he's too good to know a friend like me.

The person I fell in love with has died. And yet he thinks I'm not over him.

I don't need him to tell me to hate him. Because I don't want to hate him, love him, like him, dislike him and neither do I want him back or have him in the centre of my heart. I just don't want to care about him anymore. I don't want to acknowledge his exsistence at all. And I expect him to do the same.

No, it doesn't hurt. It's more like a RELIEF. I want him OUT OF MY LIFE.

Hating the person only shows you still care, its indifference that proves you have nothing for that person anymore.

Yes, I've fought for him before. Yes, I've given in to many times. Yes, I was practically his lapdog. Yes, I've kept the secret desire to be his friend again someday.

But now, my only wish is for him to go to US ASAP. What hopes of friendship? I've burned them all. Heck, I even wish I never knew him.

The boy I knew and fell in love with has DIED.


This is the boy I gave everything to.


Taiwanese,
Sueanne ♀